Am I the worst auditor/accountant/CPA ever? Am I cursed? Do I suck THAT bad and everyone else has realized it but me?
Here, briefly, is my background: I went to a state school, got a double bachelor's in accounting and finance, went into the MAcc program at the same school, interned in audit with one of the big four, got a full-time offer from them, accepted it, completed my MAcc, and went to work.
I lasted about a year and a half as an audit associate in the big 4. I worked mostly with non-public clients; manufacturing, some tech stuff, agriculture, the kind of clients you'd expect in the Midwest. I passed the CPA and got my license. As I was getting near promotion to senior and was just gearing up to run my first couple small jobs, I was called into the managing partner's office one morning and told that, since I had the lowest overall review scores of the audit associates in my office, they were letting me go. I chalked it up to the office's loss of a few larger clients (I was let go along with a couple other staff).
I was then eagerly hired by a second-tier firm as an experienced audit associate. I lasted about eight months there before being let go. I didn't have any good excuse for this one but tried not to let it get to me. I had some issues with one of the partners in the office in regards to taking too long to do some tasks and that sort of thing (I'll readily admit that I'm not the fastest auditor in the world, but I think the work I do does tend to be good work).
I was then — again, eagerly, it seemed — hired by a regional firm as a beginning senior associate. I lasted about four months. They told me I wasn't a 'good fit' for the firm. I don't have any idea what that means. I thought I got along with everyone pretty well; I started during their slow season and had only worked on a couple of clients. The rest of the time I had been in the office, sending out available e-mails and looking for work to do; I was always happy to do the work that I was able to get. The couple jobs I worked on seemed to go pretty well, and the one review I got back was positive.
So here I am. I've been fired by not one, not two, but three different public accounting firms. I really, truly don't feel like I'm incompetent. I've gotten some pretty glowing reviews from managers (not all, but some). Then all of a sudden one day I'm turning in my computer and heading out the door.
So I guess my question is: what the heck am I doing wrong? Am I the worst CPA ever? I really don't know what to do at this point. If I just had the one 'you suck' datapoint I'd chalk it up to bad luck or whatever, but with three different firms telling me 'you suck' I'm really considering whether I should even bother looking for another accounting job. I'm 29 now and not excited at the idea of going back to school, plus I don't have any idea what else I would do. I feel like shit now, and I'm not sure what to do. Part of me wants to just give up and go work in fast food or something like that.